to talk to someone face to face about finances, someone who is either an organizational person, or a financial counselor, or someone who is in a position similar to mine (net worth, working parents, homeowner). I regret that I am blind in many ways: can't see poverty among me, nor how my own spending habits jeopardize my future; and dumb: can't talk about my fears with my spouse because he'll counter with "you worry too much," "you're like this right before your period," "your expectations are too high."

to start accounting for all purchases and charges in my family, not just the ones that I make.

to read "yes, we've noticed prices going up too and the percentage change is larger than the government-stated inflation rate. You're not paranoid, just watchful."

to be told I'm doing okay. If I can't be honestly told I'm doing okay, because I'm really not doing okay, I want to be shown how I can realistically manage all my financial goals on our current income. And yes this is markedly different from making sure my goals are realistic or trying for more income. I already spend less than I make, so no five-word platitudes or quips to that effect, please.

adequate Vitamin D levels (working on this)

junk in my garage Freecycled, and books and magazines downstairs sold on eBay.

time to exercise

a look at my backyard and see how shady/bright it is and what I can use for gardening.